. . Ponder. It’s awkward to find a distance growing further between the people you used to be very close with. Even when you try to be like before, you don’t seem to be able to connect well. It’s as if you’ve been re-wired entirely to a different setting. Almost felt that you’re going solo at this point and the next. Like you’ve walked out and never look back. Faux pas is what you felt when you engaged. Question is, why. Disappointment perhaps? a need to, move on? Missed class and skipped the stamina regime. Physically drained. I felt that all I need is sleep. Contradicting too, as I sleep most of my traveling time. Even if I don’t feel like sleeping I still prefer to shut my eyes than to be staring to the other side. It’s harder to duck piercing stares or glances especially if it’s meant for you. I always wished the seating alignment and direction is similar to European style trains where its two to three seater facing the driver. Doesn’t need to be cushioned seats or large seats.